Thursday, March 5, 2009
How to move beyond tomorrow.
Tomorrow is her funeral and I am so sad. It's been good to have this week of busy activity; trying to get everything organized and planned for the funeral, because it's kept me distracted. But I don't want tomorrow to come. After her funeral, that will be it. Everyone will go home and we'll be expected to "move on" with our lives. And I don't know how to move beyond tomorrow. It is alot like how I felt on Sunday morning. I hadn't wanted to wake up Sunday, because that was the "day after" I delivered Mary Grace. The day after I got to hold my tiny little baby. The day after everyone who came into our hospital room mourned our loss with us. The day after. It all happened so fast now. All those hours of waiting to deliver her and now the delivery is over, holding her is over, memorizing her face is over, funeral preparations are over and tomorrow after the funeral it will all be over. I just want God to carry me while I cry, because I don't know how to take the next step. Please pray that God will show us how to move forward over the next few days.