Today I thought I'd share the picture that we displayed at the funeral. It is the picture of Rob holding Mary Grace's little feet. It was taken by Robin Rogers and shows just how tiny our little girl was. She was so small and yet she was so perfectly formed. You could see her tiny little toenails and the delicate lines on the bottom of her feet.
I was happy that we took lots of photos of her as well as having a professional photographer. It just feels like you could not have too many pictures of someone who was here for such a short amount of time. Her pictures are very personal and close to mine and Robert's heart. I almost feel protective of them- maybe that's my way of being protective of her. But we have only shared this one picture.
Yesterday and today have been much better days for me. I've been trying to stay busy. Today we went and picked out a collection of fake flowers from Michael's to lay at Mary Grace's grave. I detest fake flowers, but it is the cemetery's policy and I understand that it makes more sense to have something that will last at a cemetery, rather than having fresh cut flowers that would wilt and die. The collection we chose is actually quite pretty; I guess fake flowers have come a long way. I also bought a box in which to put some of her remembrance items. I have had a very strong and urgent need to quickly find a "home" for some of her things. It feels good to have a special space for them now.
Your prayers must have really been working, because it is an absolutely gorgeous 78 degree day here in Raleigh with Carolina blue skies and a gentle breeze, and I really feel like my heart has been lightened a bit today. I guess you really do ride grief like the ocean waves, because today it is hard to be too sad when God is showing His glory in this springtime weather. I feel like God is not only carrying me today, but holding me up to delight in His creation.