I'm head over heels in love with this little baby boy! He's not even here yet, but as each day draws closer to his arrival, my heart has been swelling with love and excitement! I cannot wait to count his fingers and toes, to watch him breathe, to see if he has a head full of hair, to hear those precious baby cries. He is going to arrive and add another member to our family....okay so that might have already been obvious to everyone, but for me it has been this sort of slowly unfolding revelation. Sure, I've understood it in my head, but wrapping my heart around it....that we will really have another living, breathing, comes-home-to-live-with-us child (!) is just so joyously overwhelming!
My head swims with the idea lately....and sometimes I have to put the thought "away" because it is simply overwhelms me with emotion.
Everything is making this reality more clear: from my ever expanding belly, to the way we've been incorporating the new baby into our everyday speech (to get Isabel more and more accustomed to the idea), to the way this boy just rolls and stretches in my belly like he is ready to evacuate!
He is coming in just a scant 10 weeks!!!
I can barely contain myself! God is indeed wonderful and gracious! And somehow, though we cannot always "see" and understand it, His timing is perfect. It has indeed taken time for me to appreciate this, and there are days when I wonder why it could not be the way I had originally intended it. But through my story I have been able to witness to others of God's love and faithfulness....what would I have had to witness about had I not experienced the pain of suffering infertility and losing babies?
Lord, my prayer is that I may not lose sight of the preciousness of life, which only You give and take. Please let others see it too! And bless those struggling with infertility and/or pregnancy loss, that they might find strength in You during their darkest moments! Bless those who desire a child, with a healthy pregnancy or a smooth adoption! Put your hand over those who are currently pregnant that both mother and child would be strong and healthy. Always Lord, turn our hearts to You, that we might know true life in your son, Jesus.