Saturday, August 21, 2010

Down and out!

That's how I've been feeling this week.  Absolutely down and out from morning sickness.  Except my morning sickness is all-day-long sickness.  Luckily I have not been throwing up much...but the non-stop extreme queasy feeling has just been awful. 

So Friday I finally conceded and called my OB for an anti-nausea prescription.  Got it within 2 hours and took 1/2 a pill (directions say 1/2 to 1 pill every six hours!)....well the half pill knocked me out within 45 minutes.  Luckily I took it right before naptime; so made it upstairs and napped with Isabel...but when I woke up it was like a bad hangover.  So I'm trying 1/4 of a pill next....I'll report back when I wake up ;)

Nausea aside........our MFM (maternal fetal medicine) ultrasound appointment last Monday went well.  We got to see baby again, alive and well with an even stronger heartbeat!  This time I brought Isabel and Rob with me, so it made it a little more real for our entire family to witness it together.  Doc still noticed *something* over near my left ovary/tube and has now put me on pelvic rest for the next 2 weeks.  No intercourse, no heavy lifting, no gym (ha...wasn't going to the gym anyway)!  It has me just a little more concerned this time since he put me on pelvic rest, but I'm still not very worried about it.  Have to go back on 8/27 to take another peek.  And quite honestly, the more ultrasounds that I can get to make sure the little one is still alive in my womb, the better!

Other things we've been dealing with are the sweet, innocent prayers of dear daughter, Isabel.  "Dear God, please let the baby in mommy's tummy grow big and strong and be born alive and come home to live with us."  The first time she prayed for the baby to live, I almost lost it.  A 4 year old shouldn't have to pray for that.  She shouldn't have to know at such a tender age that some babies (in our case, most babies) don't make it to be born alive into the world. 

However, it's the prayer that our whole family has been praying since we found out we were pregnant.  Please God, let your creation, this precious little baby, LIVE!  At this point, I fear my anger toward God if He decides to take this baby too.  Not because I would not be able to handle it on my own...but because of the pain it would cause me if Isabel lost another sibling.  How would she react to another loss, older as she is this time?  What if she loses faith in God because He keeps taking something so precious to our family time and time again?  I don't dwell on this.  I try not to even go there.  But in private I beg God not to take this baby for Isabel's sake.  

In other news our marriage encounter weekend was just what we needed, and I can't wait to share some AMAZING ways in which God was working while we were there!  But I'll save that for another post! 

For the life of every living thing is in his hand, and the breath of every human being.  Job 12:10

14 comments:

Kaitlin @ More Like Mary said...

What a beautiful pray from your daughter! I'm praing the same thing for you!

Michelle said...

Oh my...this sounds so familiar! My son used to pray the same thing and it would just hit me so hard. He wanted a little brother or sister for years. The beginning of my last pregnancy I was put on pelvic rest for 'something' on the u/s- all turned out well. It will be hard not to worry every day until your little one is born but you have lots of people praying for you. And sometimes, I think our little ones' innocent prayers are the strongest!

Leila @ Little Catholic Bubble said...

I am so hopeful. I can see why you have those fears, for Isabel's sake. I will add my prayers for a baby to be in your ARMS in a few months!

Can't wait to hear about ME weekend! I've always wanted to do one.

My Heart Exults... said...

Crying and praying.

Faith makes things possible said...

Praying for you guys that everything goes well!

mrsblondies said...

Sorry you are feeling down! I definitely get your concern and I'm on pelvic rest too for my spotting/SCH. Isabel's prayer is so sweet, but I'm sorry that she even realizes that some babies don't make it. Praying for you.

Amie said...

I am glad to hear the baby is doing well. I hope whatever is going on over on the side clears out of there soon! And I understand your pain about Isabel's prayers. No child should have to go through that. I remember when that happened to us how devastating it was for the kids. I am sure you've instilled great faith in Isabel though, and she will be able to handle anything that comes her way. Continuing to pray for you!

Danya @ He Adopted Me First said...

Your sweet daughter will always be appreciative of the precious gift of LIFE! And that is a beautiful, beautiful thing. Praying for baby and peace...blessings...

Michelle said...

When I was sick during pregnancy I tried to focus on what a great sign it was. If you are sick it means that all the hormones to make your uterus and baby grow are present. So instead of the dreading the nausea embrace it sweetie!! (kind of sick? just trying to help) Then RELAX and enjoy the pregnancy for all it is worth! Maybe throw a prayer in there that you all can just enjoy this time of mommy's belly growing and baby's movements when they start. Enjoy this quality time you have left with just the 3 of you. Remember God wants you all to be happy, He has blessed with another baby in your belly he wants you to enjoy that for what it is. God bless!

Megan said...

I am praying for you, and your sweet babies in heaven are also praying for you, Isabel, your husband, and the precious little one in your womb!

doctorgianna said...

I missed your pregnancy announcement earlier. Congratulations! What great news! I'm praying for you!

This_Cross_I_Embrace said...

You're right, no little girl should have to be praying that way.
I didn't know you did an Marriage Encounter! We really enjoyed ours, too.
I'm keeping you in prayer.

Hil323 said...

Do they have you on Phenagran? That stuff is rough and makes you feel like you have a hangover. Next time you go ask about Zofran. Praying-Love, Hil

lavatea said...

My 6 year old has started telling me that I won't ever have another baby. Three losses so close together have really messed with her, I think. She talks about the babies a lot, so I know she won't forget them, but it hurts me that she doesn't think a baby can live to be born.