I survived attending the first baby shower since Mary Grace died! I know, what did I think was going to happen? That I would just evaporate or something? I knew I would survive, but if it had been a test, I passed with flying colors!
I had fun.
I enjoyed being there.
I felt HAPPY for my friend who was pregnant!
I "oooo'ed and awww'ed" over all the tiny, pink little girl outfits....and meant it!
Yes, I did have a moment when one of the other ladies said, "Oh I want a little girl!" (She has all boys). And I thought to myself, "I want another little girl too..." Which brought just a brief moment of self-pity, but then it dissolved and I was able to go back to being joyful for the mother-to-be!
What a great thing! This was the third baby shower that I've been invited to since Mary Grace died. The first being just a week after burying Mary Grace, and of course I could not attend. The second being a baby shower on my would-be due date, which I also could not attend for emotional reasons. But with this one, the timing was just perfect and I think I have vaulted the baby shower hurdle!
It does feel like a milestone! And I could not have done it without the Lord's help!